Thoughts on what this is and what it will be
Don't really see any immediate returns, but I guess this is how it works. It is surprisingly weird to realize that all the knowlege that is taught as "recipes for success" just comes naturally when you are doing the thing that you actually want to do. Trying to apply it to things that you are not really interested in is far more exhausting and becomes just another idea you have to keep in your head. For me it usually just ends up unfinished.
For some reason I feel like I have to do more, something more expressivev and representative of myself than just casual thoughts I write down each morning. I think I am yet to realize how this whole project will impact me, it just feels like it will be much more about me exploring who I am and what I really think like, instead of just presenting my thoughts to the outside world. It looks like it will actually turn out to be something completely different... Which is great. I still have to find out what exactly, though.
I don't really understand how this kind of writing is perceived by other people. I understand that it is messy, that there is no clear thought, some things are not connected to other. My intent was that if someone is interested in this kind of ideas, they would appreciate it in any form, but I am not quite sure whether this is how it works. Time will show, I guess. Right now I like what I am doing, it seems the primary thing to consider. Thank you.