Thoughts on waves
Unfortunately, I do not see any improvements in terms of clarity of my perception, slowly it is getting worse. But that's ok, that's not the first time, I will figure something out. My fear of not-perfect writing returns, and it is alright too, I suppose.
It feels like everything in life comes in waves. Everything comes, everything goes. Experience just shows how much this "everything" actually means and how many things it includes. Right now I am experiencing a low in terms of my ability to think. I understand that it is a biologiical necessity in this case, but it is still hard to navigate. It feels like some kindn of physical overreaching.
Yet I am glad I wrote so much today, at least compared to my one-sentence quota. The future is so uncertain in my case, when you find some way around what is happening, and then comes something bigger and you have to deal with everything all over again. It is hard, genuinely hard, but I am making it through, or at the very least I am trying to. That's all I can think of right now. Thank you.