Thoughts on real writing
I don't really know what to say, again. Feels a bit weird to start a post with this kind of words every time. But that's what I want to write, so I guess it doesn't matter.
Music seems like an interesting way to connect people. I haven't tried it, but in theory it seems convincing. Yet again I try to formalize it, to make it fit, to make it of a certaiin format that will get me where I want to be. It was always about performace, which is weird and unnatural, but that was all I knew up to this point. I know it doesnt work, but it is almost in your blood when you have been doing it for so long. "How can a human interaction not be about performance? If I will just perform enough..."
But this kind of writing slowly helps, even though it still feels like trying to inhale underwater. But the idea that in the grand scheme of things, when all the influences and emotional factors considered, any kind of writing is real really makes me feel better. Guess that's it for now.