Thoughts on mental health
Yesterday was heavy in terms of thinking. I have noticed that there are some topics I dont really want to talk about, because they feel like an attack on my worlview. And it actually appears to be reasonable now that I analyze it. I think I dont like these topics because they drive my attentioin from what I think is actually true. One of such things is mental health. I know there are things I am struggling with, but I consider it completely normal, it is natural to struggle, it is a part of life, it doesn't necessarily indicate that there is something wrong with me. In my case I am just trying to overcome the struggle, even though it is not easy.
Maybe it is solely my problem, but it is just unpleasant for me to hear somethinig about mental health. In my situation the lack of any substantial understanding from people around me made the term a way to avoid any unfamiliar problems. The fact that I would feel something except for happiness was clearly and indicator that something was wrong with me.
This phrase can also have such a vague meaning, almost anything can become a mental health issue. I understand that there are genuine problems that the term mental health encompasses, the problems that really deserve to be talked about and require medical assistance, but this is more about my subjective experience with the term. Yet so much of it is just what I call the pain syndrome. You can hurt your leg, and instead of figuring out why it hurts you can carry the diagnosis of the "pain syndrome" and say that you have some pain problems. And this is terrible, because the leg sometimes can't cure itself and needs help, but instead many people just use painkillers.
In my opinion, it is not even a "health", it is something much deeper. It is litreally the way you experience the world, what can be more important? It is something a human just has to know about, about how it works. And there are so many other ways people simply avoid getting hang of it, it is just sad.
And going back to this being an attack on my worldview: when I had any problems regarding mental health, I was trying to figure out why I was feeling what I was feeling. It would always start with assumptions, almost always they were reasonable, but some were deeper than others. And the problem was that when I would tell anybody about my thoughts on the topic of my feelings, because, well, I think I am the person that should be the most competent in my feelings, I would always recieve a reaspone like "it is just [something that it is not]". And when it did not solve anything, it was simply because of the problems with my mental health.
I dont have some kind of ultimate truth on the topic, only my experience. It works for me, I am glad I have it, yet it is not universal and there may well be something I am missing. If you have anything to add, please feel free to use my guestbook or send me an email. Thank you very much.